The mind gets caught in cycles caused from both positive and negative experiences. Positive experiences are made into positive memories that can bring us a sense of pleasure far after the event has passed. Our brain quickly recalls the experience that may trigger a smell, a visual memory, and/ or the emotions one felt at that time. Positive thoughts influence positive action, therefore one may lead a happier life if one can control his or her own brain to focus on the positive.
Negative experiences and the memories created from such, are very toxic to ones own mental and physical health. The brain has a hard time breaking out of negative cycles as it is unable to form positive and happy links to reality. This is even more difficult when ones own reality reflects the negative memories. The brain is then unable to record positive experiences, filling itself and repeating negative ones.
The subconscious tries to communicate its discontentment with our conscious to repair and change these negative cycles. Many experience this through their dreams and unexplainable intuitive desires. Sleep Paralysis and lucid dreaming are common in those who are depressed and unable to break out of the depression. The brain recreates its pain into horrifying and terrifying visuals while the body is asleep.
In this body of work, I am making my abstract mental struggles into a physical by making a mark on a landscape. The patterns and marks I am making are completely intuitive. I am building a shelter and comforting myself from the pain that my subconscious is expressing and the feeling of being threatened. My brain is caught in a toxic cycle so I am exhausting myself physically and mentally through building and making these different types of shelters. I get lost in the action that I am making, and reach a meditative state where my subconscious can finally rest. I feel that these acts are like self baptisms and even though I am exhausted, in the end I feel mentally stronger and happier.
I am recording these intuitive acts to document my full-body sculpting, and reassembling the documentation into a non-sequential narrative. In these states, my perspective of the world is detached and I am disoriented. I want my viewer to feel a sense of this same disorientation but still be able to follow a narrative. In the film I am comparing a man-made and more intimate scale to the grand and fantastical to make the viewer relate it to a dream sequence.
This is an ongoing archive of my family. I am documenting different rooms and items that have not changed in many years, yet are still effected by aging. I am finding these objects and things as evidence of a life and that life's influence on another's. This body of work is often displayed with family snapshots taken from the 1920's- 1980's. I like forming relationships between these photographs to try to tell a more complete story. Rather than the focus being on one image at a time, it is on several at once. This body of work will be a book in its final form.
Is a documentation collective of friends and family from my home town in Mississippi. Here I was investigating the strange intertwined web that exists in small town America. Each of these photographs represents a story or relationship of importance.